I went to Harold's a little early today because I needed to be home by 9 AM. I went because I will be gone next week. I talked to him a little bit about Gary and Lena. He knows he made Lena feel bad but doesn't quite get how and why. I tried to tell him that Gary meant everything to Lena and that she misses him terribly. Because of his condition, I don't know if he will remember our conversation but hopefully it hit home. We went to McDonald's and he got 3 sausage mcmuffins instead of two because he doesn't get Meals on Wheels today. We asked him if he wanted to go to Evelyn Barlow's 85th Birthday Party but he declined. He also said he would not be coming to St. George with us in a couple of weeks because his back is bothering him. He did say the High Priest leadership came to see him and will pick him up and take him home each Sunday. That is really good news with winter coming. He also mentioned moving to an Assisted Living Center soon. We better strike while the iron is hot!! Also, Sheryl, I paid his property taxes and left it with a couple of other bills on his desk.

Thanks for understanging.....

Dear family:

I appreciate for your understanding. I was trying to help....
While Gary gave Dad a last ride to church, when he came back home he said he was very dizzy to drive but he still did anyway--he was trying so hard to taking care of dad... So even he is gone I feels like still should do something to dad FOR GARY.

It was the 2nd very bad experience with Dad recently since Gary passed away (1st time was he gave Gary a dress at Larkin). It is hard for me to bear the way he treated my husband so disrespectable. To be honest, that was the way Gary always felt about his Dad who made Gary think he is not good enough to make his dad proud of....

That's why when I know Dad even did not bothered to come by to see Gary at greve site after visit Mom, i want to know how much his son Gary realy means to Harold, that's why I asked how about $10.00 for your son's funeral? Did your son worth $10.00 to you?

When I heard "I don't have any money" I was totally heart broken... I want to tell him, at least, we still pay your cellphone bill every month... I didn't say anything....I was trying to "behive myself" to give Harold the maxium respect I could.

In my eyes Gary was a perfect man! He was too good to be true in my life!.. and I am still feel unbearable of lossing him......

Kathy is right, I may need a little bit longer break, I am assuming... I do understand Dad's illness right now... I shouldn't take his words too serious ... I also know myself even not in the normal emotional status yet.... I lost every thing, couldn't find a lot of thing.... Gary took my mind away with hime...

I am going to grave site every day to see Gary and Mom... I want Mom taking good care of my husband for me, there, ... I put the new flowers for both of them...

Oh, one more thing, I got new position of work-- I am still work at Family history department and do waypoints instead of catelog, and got a new supervisor..which is great!

Sorry I wrote to long.... thanks for giving me longer break... I would still like to take the my&Gary's respocibility of caring of dad... I just need to be more normal first, i think...

Love you and appriciate for all your love and support.